Time has always been ticking. I’ve tried so hard not to think about it but now it’s nearly impossible not to. Less than 3 weeks to go, I’m nowhere near ready to go back. My brain hasn’t been chewing on intellectual stuff much and looking at my reading list titles for my modules this fall makes my face like this :s
Time is never enough. We can’t live for the short 3 months of summer, only to be ‘dead’ for the rest of the year. Reality for us is having the peace to accept that we live apart for 9 months for the next three years. It is knowing that Skype, instant messaging, paid calls is our reality for now. The deal? We will be okay with it. It’s more than just getting used to the distance, it’s embracing the inevitable challenges and the joy of knowing that it’ll all be worth it in the end. It’s impossible not to feel sad about it, much less depressed. But if we allow this reality of ours to cause us to lapse into depression for 3/4 of the year, I will say that we’ve failed to live our lives fully and effectively. Sure, it’s all right to miss each other and feel depressed at times but God will enable us to say that it is all right, we accept it deep within ourselves that it’s not about ‘bearing with it till we meet again’ nor ‘cursing the distance’. But it is about embracing this reality, overcoming its hurdles and closing the distance with lots of intentional love and communication.
So. At the end of this summer, I will not say that we did not spend enough time together for it will never be enough. It was never about trying to spend all our time we have together so that it will see us through the times when we are apart, I don’t think it works that way. I will always treasure the times we spent together this summer and trust God to ease our transition into stage 1 again of virtual communication. It isn’t going to be easy at all; in fact, it may be harder than it was the first time we were apart. But this time, may we be able to cope better with what perhaps will be more matured perspectives, wiser selves, greater awareness of our need for God and hopefully, stronger ties.
Less time is not what it is, but timeless it is.
Time does not have to work against us; we make it work for us by keeping our focus on things of above – a God-defined love moulded by experience and time to become like His.
P.S. I love you