To say that it’s been a long while since I last posted would be a severe understatement. I’ve got so much to say but here’s just a quick one to pen down my thoughts since it’s already past one over here. I’m writing as the words come to mind so please pardon the lack of thoughtfulness to language.
Term Two starts next Monday and though I say this every year, I honestly, especially don’t feel ready for it at all. With a dissertation to do from scratch, 3 presentations and 3 essays for the next few months, I’m beginning to feel like procrastinating to avoid the dreadful reality ahead. It’s no secret I’m organizationally-challenged, no less crucial for this term. Only God can help. I’m really jaded by anything studies-related this academic year. Knowing that I would like to go into marketing/communications that is completely unrelated to my degree makes it harder to feel motivated. Having to juggle my workload with searching and applying for jobs doesn’t help. At all.
Discipline, routine and focus have always remained elusive for me as I’ve always wondered how does one even begin to have discipline? Some say one has discipline by just being disciplined. Profoundly simple but so difficult to achieve. For those reading this who are of faith, please keep me in your prayers, I don’t know how I’m going to get through the next 5 months without burning out or giving up. After receiving my grades for last term, first class honours seems even more of an illusion now. Good but never good enough.